Artist Resolutions, bit on the late side.

So... these artist resolutions are a bit late coming in the year, but I figure I might as well go ahead and post them now.

Things are a bit different now than they were in January, after all--

So anyways,

Suka's top five art goals for the 09/10 year

1. Get into Animation. So like I've already let everyone know, I didn't make it into animation. I don't completely think it's justified, but hey, life ain't fair and there's always some reason in the future I'll be glad for later. At least, that's what I'm banking on.

2. Work on hands. Pretty weak area on my portfolio submission were my hands, which was a bit of a blow because I love drawing hands and think I do a pretty decent job of them.

3. Learn to draw animals. Second weak area in my portfolio. Everything else was pretty good, but this wasn't.

4. Learn to ink traditionally. Gotta get away from the pen tool at some point or another!

5. Find a system of digital painting I like. Still not happy with the way I paint, so I need to work on that. Want to learn cell shading, all that fun stuff.

And just an add on that kinda goes with learning to ink, is learn to work line weights to my advantage. Something to add a bit more interest to my drawings, and hopefully help me out next year.

Since I didn't make it this year.. I'm going to haul ass, keep my grades up, score myself some decent bursaries, scholarships, whatever, practice like an idiot, draw till my fingers go numb and fall off... Okay maybe not that far, but draw until I can't anymore,

and I'm going to get into animation next year with a drop dead amazing portfolio.

I'll show life what fair is >[ Just you wait.

I'm not about to give up, even though it means I've got to do it on my own.

Cornered!

Okay, so Uhm.. I think it's a pretty damn safe bet to say I didn't get into animation.

Couple days have passed, and now I don't feel like such a loser!

Still don't feel all that hot, but whatever, I'll deal. And I'm dealing. And my friends are awesome and supportive and amazing and uh.. not letting me feel like a loser =P

SHOCKINGLY;

I am still capable of drawing.

Which surprised the hell out of me, considering last year when I got my rejections, I was unable to draw for well over three months. I do remember that very clearly.

ARTWORKS tralalalalala *uploads*


And here we have it. I actually like it, even thought the anatomy is very wrong x3 Okay well the anatomy isn't even that bad, it's just a bit skewed on the right shoulder there..

So the story behind the art! I'd had a nice lovely hot shower, and while I was in the shower.. the sun set. What a surprise. I walk back to my room and sit on the computer as I brush out my hair. I don't bother to turn on the lights, cause.. well E-Vain is kinda bright. So I'm talking to Sarah, and telling her about this pill bug I was oh-so-lucky to step on when I got out of my shower. I'm chatting, blahblahblah, when, I notice this thing in the top left corner of my screen. I pay it a little mind, and realize it has multiple little pointy legs and is doing that creepy thing spiders do when they climb back up a string of webbing.

Spiders are cool, don't get me wrong, I like the creepy crawly nasty buggers, cause.. Well they eat the OTHER creepy crawly nasty buggers I really don't like. For the most part, when I see a spider, I leave the dude alone. On my computer, nothing but a black silhouette in a dark room?

Yeaaaa-ha-ha-haaaaah.... No. I gave a really odd strangled scream and pushed back from my computer and staggered to my feet, throwing my brush off my lap and somewhere across the room, tripping over my chair, finally managing to turn on my lamp and spin back to my computer.. and the bastards gone.

GREAT.

Guess where he was hiding? He was hiding in the little golden christmas bow I'd stuck on my moniter in December and never bothered to take off.

Jerk.

So I'm standing there, wondering how the heck I'm going to kill this thing, when my brother comes up, presumably curious as to why I screamed and caused such a ruckus. I tell him to get the spray, and I get a piece of paper, the idea that we were going to douse the ribbon in spray, and the spider would fall out in all that wonderful shrivelled curled glory that IS a dead spider, and I could throw it away.

Didn't work so well. The spray was apparently broken, so I was like.. okay, cool, I'll just reach over, detach the tape that is holding the ribbon onto my screen, and then we can stomp the shit out of it. I detach the ribbon, it falls on the paper, and the thing scurries out, and beelines it directly for me.

Gave the funny high pitched, "Oh, oh oh!", did a funny dance move, waved my free hand like a dofus before i realize that I'm still holding the thing and dropped the paper. The spider was then on my floor, so I promptly clambered away from it, right up onto my dresser, where I perched and yelled at my brother to "KILL IT, KILL IT, NO NOT THAT WAY, KILL IT!!!"

Eventually, after a lot of frightened squeaks on my end, spider became a damp splot under a piece of tissue paper on my floor.

Squish-dead.

Tada, story behind the art!

Fun fact, the ribbon the bastard was hiding in detached itself from my screen as I was sitting here typing. Heart skipped a couple beats, breath caught in my lungs, and I managed again, "Oh--!" and some frantic hand waving before it clicked that it was nothing more than ribbon.

Jerk spider!!!

I love boars

So, today was yet another crappy day >< It's just a spiraling chain of events, I'm telling you. Thought I was feeling better yesterday, being all productive like at the shop, then I woke up, came to school..

And some assface swiped my pencil case.

I'm not totally broken up about it, more pissed than anything (I was at the point where things ceased to be upsetting and just got frustrating), but I lost a bunch of time wandering around the LC looking for it, ran to security asked there, went all over the place, and no dice. Turns out honour isn't as prominent in college as I thought it would be.

Anyways, I considered going up to Andreas, but I was like.. where's the point? So I proceeded to go to first period, and.. sit in the hallway for some stretch of time.

Sarah showed up, and handed me this http://www.illustratedatcs.com/forum/gallery/index.php?n=11400, that she made for me to cheer me up.. and it even says on the back "Made just for Annie," and it worked. I was looking at it periodically through the day, because I damn well love boars and it made me feel really happy that she'd gone through all the effort of making it for me, specifically to cheer me up. I still feel happy thinking about it x3

And then Andrea showed up, who I explained why I hadn't come to see her that morning, and she hands me one of her gouache comics.. the one from christmas where she THOUGHT she asked me to close the door in proper english, but really just mumbled nonsensically at me where the only word I could understand was "Yes!" And I had a good chuckle over that. She also pulled this spiderman notepad dealer that she had brought back to toronto from home, once again.. just for me.

So those personal surprise presents this morning made the day that much more manageable with me having gone and lost all my stuff.

Anyways.. the artwork of the day.. I got this idea the moment I used the word "Piglet" in the RP Sarah and I run together. Ain doesn't like PEOPLE, but animals are a different story. It was kinda neat how I was working on this in the LC (where my pencil case got nabbed), realized I didn't know what to do with his arms, and went to class, where Sarah handed me the baby (Baeddan) boar ATC, and the little connection i drew there made me happy too.

Ainmire is now left handed (because I keep screwing up when i draw him), his scars are now the result of a run in with a Chupacabra (yeah.. screw you bear), Baeddan is seven years old, and Ainmire raised him from an itty bitty piglet when he was sixteen. Hence the reason the two get along so well!

Naaaaw, boar piggies...

Anyways, I was supposed to be working on my post >< But I think I'm actually going to do what I promised and go to bed early tonight...

OHZ MAH GAWD, A FACE

Probably shouldn't be making a blog with my current mood, but hey, I'm looking for a distraction. Cute pictures and aimlessly wandering around DA can only work for so long.

So yeah, feelin' really crappy today and trying to work through it by rationalizing that I don't have a reason to be upset, but apparently I don't believe myself. At all. Joy.

Drew this picture on monday, figured Suka needed a new profile dealer thinger seeing as she's no longer infected and all healed up. Course, even though she doesn't wear bandages over her face anymore, she's accustomed to wearing her hair that way, so it's almost the same thing >< but you can see her face now.

I went back into the pale pink again, even though I changed it. Can't help it, pink just suits her. Green doesn't work x3 tried it. So pink or brown, I flew with the pink. And fruffles (yes, with an F) cause.. I don't know, because I said so.

TWICE IN A DAY?! lozer...

THA'S RIGHT, I'M POSTING AGAIN TODAY

So I was sitting here colouring this thing up
quicktime.. and I was thinking about how I planned to get the file to my sister, who was not online, but in bed sleeping. I'm running options through my head, I could upload it here... Where she would eventually find it.. or I could upload it to photobucket and offline message her the link... Oh but damn, I really wanted to give her the file =/

I'm thinking to myself, "Isn't there some way to give someone a file without them being online?"

And it hit me...

"Yes you stupid shit, It's called E-MAIL" *face/palm* I seriously question my intelligence some days. Today is one of them.

ANYWAYS, my sister asked me if I could make a cartoon of her for her. This wasn't the background I was planning on using, but HEY, I'm so smart I shut down photoshop before I was finished and didn't save the psd file.

Greeeeeeeeat, hope she likes the red and purple dots.

My own personal.... Serial killer?

WEE!!! Okay so this is a process picture of the mask I'm working on for my 3d design class. Pretty much, we had to take a human frailty and then design a bit of armour to protect against that human frailty.

I didn't Exactly focus on a frailty, i more tried to make it how I feel when I'm at home. Its a very snug fit, almost claustrophobic (Especially now that its shrunk a wee bit), there's no actual expression on it, and the mouth is covered (I can sound like Darthvader when I breathe), because when I come home, I'm afraid to really say anything cause it always comes out wrong and ends badly. It's also something I figured represents the lack of creativity I feel while I'm here.

Feels like I'm smooshed between the pages of a book. I gave it large bat-like ears to represent that I really have to learn to listen (i.e. think) before I speak, and the fact that really all I'm ever expected to do is sit around, listen and do what I'm told. Gave it some fishy/spike dealys kinda like a lionfish just for an added element of needing to look more threatening/bigger as a defense mechanism. Gonna add some fun textures to represent the want to blend in/melt away, another defense mechanism.

I'm obviously not going to say that to the class XD Going to invent some kinda frailty. Gotta think about that =P But yeah, I'm almost finished covering it, then I can start putting in the details and having fun there.

My eyes are driving me insane, and I don't know if its from the constantly testing to see if my mask still fits and having it just that tiny bit too close to my eyes, or some kind of strain from the computer, which is silly because I really haven't been on the computer that long today ><

Anyways, gotta get back to work, and the brother wants to borrow my WoW.

PAINTING AND SCANAPALOOZA!

Today's artwork x3 Finished sometime this morning. Our RP finally hit 500 posts, and being the huge loser nerd I am.. I had to celebrate!

I had fun with the sketching.. I don't draw Chase a lot because I have a really hard time with how bloody skinny he is xD but I think I did alright =3 If I do say so myself *coughcough*

Went back and revisited the pink for this picture, because.. Well because it HAS been her outfit design since as far back as I can remember creating her. Changed it slightly, and what's this? You can see her face =O and her arm =O and no, it's not a mistake on my part x3

Once again I made Chase too tall, even though Suka's technically an inch and a half taller than he is. I swear, I'm just gonna go back and change that to make my life easier >...>

WEE FOR PAINTERLY BACKGROUNDS! I suck >< But I don't care!!! Cause I have fun sitting there scribbling away with my tablet that refuses to listen to me.

I'M IN THE PROCESS OF TURNING THIS WONDERFUL PERFECT SETTING BACK TO HELL 8D

cause let's face it.. when things are easy, it's way too boring. HAHA

Been scanning pages for a time yet, took a break to catch up on the RP and uh.. yeah, turn things around a bit!

I feel baaaaaaaaaaaaaad, but not bad enough to let things just.. be happy. HA, okay really I've still got like.. four chapters to scan and a post to finish.. G'DAY!

Hair doesn't grow so well anymore...

Blogspot seems happy to give me issues today..

Anyways, today's sketch! Made around the current painting I'm playing around with. So anyways, I had this character I invented a ways back for the RP, and I.. kinda.. killed him off. Kinda meaning uh.. I left it open ended in case he comes in handy LATER.

So I was watching Xena, and started to doodle, cause I'm thinking I have a plan for him in the near future in the RP, so now.. I have to work out how an elf survived-

Ouch, I REALLY hurt myself somehow right there X_X

Have to work out how an Elf somehow survived this horrible disease that just.. annihilates Elves in less than a minute =/

So here's my theory on Iston's miraculous survival.. I made him a master of magics involving the mind, he's very good at hoodwinking, and he was living incognito in the Vampire city for three (?) years. I've switched it up a bit and went back to what was my original thoughts on his character, a master of magics of the mind, as well as a master of disguise (instead of just using his mental magic dealy-o to make everything THINK he looked human) and reading back on the posts I actually used this character in (he didn't last long) it makes more sense this way anyhow, as I wrote about his physical... mass? Changing.

ANYWAYS, so the reason why he managed to survive his little outbreak (Albiet with much scarring) was because he spent so long disguised as a human, he sorta damaged his own genetic make up. Though normally it wouldn't really be noticable except for maybe less point to the ears, maybe just the SLIGHTEST reduction in vision, his make up was changed just enough to spare his life.

Now he's just covered in these horrible seeping boils, and is totally not a happy camper. HURRAH FOR COCKY BASTARDS GETTING IT HANDED TO THEM!

cough. *goes back to Xena*