Under the Shade of a Big Leafy Tree!

I swear, I hate deviantart when it comes to uploading png files. It never ever ever ever works! Grrrr.

Anyways, finished my next painting!

I'm going to hold onto this one for portfolio reasons too.

Next I'm hoping to paint something involving Yukio. Because he's awesome like that.

From flats to finished piece, I put a lot of time and effort into this one, collecting opinions from my room mates and fellow artists I admire, and actually incorporating the advice into my work instead of barreling on without it.

Think I defined my light source quite nicely by the end there! If I do say so myself... Perhaps a bit darker on the legs, but asides from that, I like it.

I like it quite a lot actually. Yes, I can safely say I'm proud of this!

Anyways, portfolio season is right around the corner. I had a bit of a melt down last night, going into one of my panic modes where I just burst into tears and couldn't stop until I crawled into bed and slept it off. I'm scared, terrified that I'm going to be rejected again and I'm wasting my time again.

However, I have a lot of help this year. Even more so than I had last year. I have my two room mates, Leah and Sarah; I have my teachers, John Parker and Andrew Bodor, both of which are going to be shunting me off to fellow teachers from the animation program to collect more opinions. I also have Melissa and Budgie, but I won't lie, I'm intimidated to come to them with my stuff. Not because I'm afraid of criticism, I'm prepared for a lot of ego blows while I work on this.. I'm just not comfortable with the way they look at things and assume they know what every teacher wants. I know they're second year and fourth year respectively, but... I don't know, there's something about the way they critique that isn't constructive, it's just-- Eh, I can't even come up with a word for it. There's nothing backing it? It's just, "This is the way it is because I know it."

Not comfortable.

I also can't afford to not get into animation this year.

Like last year, I'm going to start my portfolio over the winter break. I'm going to try and collect my old portfolio so I can see where I went wrong, and I'm going to collect my grading sheets so I can see where I need to improve. I already know that my life drawings have gotten better, which is good, and really, last year my life drawing is where I suffered the most. Hands and animals.

I have no idea what I'm going to do for my composition. Last year I suffered so badly, but what am I supposed to do? I'm restricted to four shapes, four geometric shapes, and my mind just gets shot every time I try to think of a composition.

I'll be okay for my room drawings, I got some fours in that last year, so I'm not worried there.

I'm not overly worried about my character creation portion either, last year I scored mostly three's in that area straight across.

Eh, it's going to be stressful.

A very quick scribble sketch I did for my friend Stephie. She was having a downer day, and I wanted to pick her spirits up. So directly in photoshop, I doodled quick time her character Rain and painted it.

I left a gap in her leg by accident! Oops. Not sure why I put this up... COMPARISON, muahahaha.

I'm tired.

I think I'm going to go to bed

Out.

11:28

Annie