Sporadic! Innit Wonderful?

Ta da, the results from my character posing assignment. These are all drawings of Ninja, a character I picked because she's insanely fun to draw and poses just about any way I can imagine.

This is what I was up till three in the morning drawing.

I don't have any varied lines, because I'm taking a break on those until it clicks a little better.

Gotta say, I'm not having the best few weeks. Came down with a cough a few weeks ago that just got worse and worse, and nobody would believe me when I said it wasn't a cold. I couldn't really walk all that great, I was short for breath, I got dizzy easily, I lost my appetite, and I was coughing so hard it hurt to breathe and my spine felt like it was going to snap. I thought maybe I had the flu, and tried to sleep it off, but it didn't work so well.

Went to the clinic, and was diagnosed with pneumonia and given a prescription for some medication. Continued to have a bad week, trying to get my homework finished on time while trying to deal with my symptoms. And I didn't finish my homework on time. I got a note from the clinic, and I got an extension. Awesome sauce!

I came home on Saturday, forgetting my entire family still hasn't adjusted to the fact that I don't eat meat. There's very little to eat in the house, and what I can eat, my brother eats before I can get there. Something with the elevation made my cough worse, which sucked, and finally, my mom dragged me to the hospital to get more medication, and chest X-rays.

Oh yeah, sexy hospital gown.

On the positive spectrum of things, I finished my project for character design, as can be seen above, my book page turn animation and I finished two of my cloud studies and I plan to finish the other three today. That leaves layout homework, painting homework, and life drawing homework. That would be three layouts, one painting and twelve drawings of feet.

Luckily the ocean animal animation got an extension on the deadline, so I don't have to worry about that this week, which is a load off my mind. Heck yes.

Tomorrow I'm going out to lunch with my friend Dickie, at some point I'll have coffee with my friend Meg, and tea with Stephie, somewhere along the line.

I'm feeling pretty chill right now. Had my new, really expensive medication (paying for it totally ruined my mood), ate something, and now I'm just chilling. Probably going to head downstairs before too long to do some more painting, but I'm going to relax up here for a bit first.

Oh Ninja, you lift my spirits to draw.

Annie

5:24

My Homage!

Hello everyone!

This is a more recent character of mine. When I first invented him way back when, it was around Ainmire's origin date.

I created him for the same storyline, and he was always created to be the son of a gorgon. He was also supposed to be incredibly evil, and absolutely thrilled to beat the shit out of anyone who crossed his path.

When I used him for an RP with my friend Tara, I realized he wasn't like that at all. In fact, he was actually a very sweet boy, who cared about other people and wasn't very proud of his ability to murder people by turning them into garden statues. He can't fight very well, but he's very adept at running. He will throw himself into things to help the people he cares about. He's incredibly clumsy, and it comes from needing to wear a blind fold twenty four hours a day. When he's not wearing it, he's very lithe and capable.

The drawing is a few weeks old, I drew it during the summer and gave it to my co-worker as a reference for a picture she wanted to draw.

For a long time now, I've wanted to create a character and name it after my favourite fictional character in the world; Sherlock Holmes.

But, I didn't want to create a smooth, super intelligent man like Holmes. I didn't want my homage to my favourite character to be a rip off of my favourite character. In fact, I wanted my Sherlock to be the total opposite Holmes is. I wanted him to be adorable, clumsy, not all that intelligent, but able to hold his own.

Originally, I named him Nikodemus. His design is still exactly the same as it ever was, when I first created him to be a hot tempered dick. Now though, his personality is very different. It wasn't until a couple weeks ago I realized.. Nikodemus is the Sherlock I always wanted to invent. So, I'm renaming him. I'm keeping the character exactly the same, and I'm naming him after my favourite character in the entire world of fiction; my homage to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle's Sherlock Holmes.

Annie

11:51

Let's Try Some Red Today

I've just been drawing depressing looking things lately.

Picked up a sketchbook from my shelf last night and realized I'd never drawn in it. Today, all through English class and break, all I did was doodle.

This was one I'd had an idea for a long time ago, but I'd never finished; so today I drew it, inked it, and painted it.

I'm taking a break from varied lines, because apparently I'm an idiot and don't understand how line weights are supposed to work.

Having a style crisis again; mostly because I feel compared to people I care about, and I really, really wish that wouldn't happen. As much as I have an impossible time figuring out what my art looks like, I still feel like I'm suffering from doppelganger syndrome. That I can't create anything original, and even when I have an original idea, I can't pull off an actual original drawing.

Which is funny, because I'm finally in animation, and I feel like I' miles ahead of some students, but miles behind others. I'm finally in the place I want to be, yet I panic and worry and fret over what my art is actually looking like.

I'm trying to take a step back and try to realize that it's a step in the learning process, and my art is going to change, as it obviously will as I pick up influences and learn things and get better at art... But I'm sitting here and really feeling quite awful. I've closed my door because I'm upset and want to keep to myself (so I'll just tell the internet instead, HAHA!), and I want to say something to somebody who can tell me something to make me feel better, but I don't know who to talk to, what to say, or what I want to hear.

It hasn't even got anything to do with anyone but me. My frustrations at constantly getting the horrific mocking 'B', the steady feeling like water is slowly raising up around my ankles, knees, thighs, waist, the fact that I feel like I'm going to do terribly in the class I was most excited for, the fact that I know I'm going to do terribly in painting class despite my best efforts...

Guess I'm feeling pretty scared, haha. I never really got to the point of answering "Excited!" When someone asked me how I was feeling about animation, my answer was always "scared" and here I am, scared out of my mind that things are slowly slipping out of my control.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to try and finish up my layout assignment. It won't be too difficult, tracing, inking, an hour or two tops. After that, life drawing class, and when I get home, I'm going to study for my "Shot by shot" quiz on Friday. Friday night, when I come home, I'm going to start my flat gray scale painting, and hopefully, possibly, maybe, probably not, finish it before I go to bed that night. Then I have the long weekend to finish the other two. Tuesday I have a book in perspective due for animation (let's hope I don't animate any pages doing nose dives), another character design class to just draw poses, seeing as they aren't due till week eight, I once again have no homework for Wednesday, but my three paintings are due that day, I have no idea what's up next Friday, and next weekend I'm going to spend the weekend drawing hands and feet, which are due week seven.

See? It doesn't seem all that bad once you plan it out, now does it?

I'm still very scared.

It's one in the morning; I think I might go to bed now.

Annie

12:51